bro

When someone you really like start addressing you as Bro, or when someone you really like and you address him as Bro. What does all this mean ?

For me, I think it sound like a Death Sentence for your feeling.

You treat him as brother because you really like him but you cant have him, so calling him Bro is the next best thing.

C'est la vie . . .

on hold

The last week had been good with K, perhaps we are just in the wrong frequency. He was looking for company and I, I didnt know I was looking for love, nevermind the age differences.

Now that I knew the truth, it will probably takes me a while to get over it, I have to, cos I've told her I actually feel better now and know how to go from here.

Life is strange, just when you think things are perfect, then it starts crashing down. There are no such thing as perfect life, there bound to be something not right. I'm pessimistic now, I'm entitled to.

I'm not making senses, I just don't know how to feel anymore.

Should I be happy for him that he is at least happy today ?
Should I be sad because I know what he is going thru ?
Should I be ashame of myself ?

What am I doing ?

I did a stupid : well.. i actually... you know... nevermind... but its ok...

Gosh, I feel stupid and embarass now, what have I done ? Did I add more pressure to him ?

Why didnt I read his blog to understand what he is going to ? Because I don't want to know his past, cos everyone of us have our past. I'm looking forward to the future, a future with him. But I was wrong, I should look into the past to understand the present him.

I want a simple life, but I'm simply good at complicating things. I should not and I should stop this now. It is getting in the way.

On Hold . . .

wat's going on

I don't know if I have done anything wrong. K seem to be upset and I hope that I'm not the cause of it.

I knew him for about a week now ? I really like him but I don't know if its for real, I'm not sure myself. Since Saturday night, I had been having this feeling, it got worse after drinks. Its a danger zone feeling, I'm scare I'm falling in love or was it infautation ?

Am I over reacting ? He doesnt seem interested in me at all, there were no intimacy, just normal friendship. Am I asking more than what I'm entitled to ? Am I scaring him away ?

Gosh, I'm just fucked up.